Over 20 years ago I had a dream that, until recently, I assumed was just one of those ideas of youthful naiveté. I had hoped to be a writer, specifically of children’s books. But plans changed as they often do. A family storm was building that needed more hands at the oars. I set aside my future as I leaned into this colossal task that seemed unwilling to move despite my best efforts. And my future self seemed to slowly die.
What can I say? Do I have regrets that my childish optimism was
clouded by painful realities? It’s hard to look at life in such a black
and white way now that I am older and somewhat wiser. I think of the
times I spent with my nieces who needed me, I think of the battle my sister is
still in, and I think of the desperate love my parents poured out. I cannot see
how anything could have gone differently.
No, the past cannot be changed. But dreams CAN come back to life.
One dream manifested itself into reality this week and I almost missed the
significance of the moment! I self-published through Amazon’s Kindle
Books!
One month back, digging through old files, it was as if I found a forgotten
time capsule or perhaps a trunk filled with treasures worthy of display. And so,
I went to work to polish and dust off the gems of youth.
I was left with a book! A real, finished, book that means something to me. I
could see that all the work I had done to grow had brought me back to my true
self. Amanda of today looks much like the woman of 18 and 20 who imagined
herself changing the world through her ideas, creativity and love.
Sometimes dreams don’t die they just hibernate for the winter. Welcome to Spring!!
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